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Good genes?

I can't believe I'm typing this, but my dad isn't dying. I finally got the strength to stand up to him and refused to buy him any more alcohol until he goes to the Urgent Care or to the ER, to get lab work for Hospice, since they need a terminal diagnosis in order to admit him into their services and can't get a terminal diagnosis until lab work is drawn. And if he is in fact dying, which I was so certain he was, I would buy him all the alcohol he wants. Since he doesn't have a primary care doctor, I had to convince him to go to a clinic or the ER for labs, which was rather difficult because he is paranoid about getting COVID or having it and passing it to people. I explained spreading it without being symptomatic first would mean spreading it is unlikely and he only goes to the bank now, so where would he get it from? Like I said before, it's not logical, but fear very seldom is.  So, I get him to the ER and they do a thorough examination and take blood to figu...
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I think my dad is dying

I think my dad is dying. He is only 63 years old, but everyone who knows him is honestly surprised that he's still alive with all the drugs, alcohol and substances he's abused in his lifetime. He is saved, thank God, because that is my only comfort right now.  I sit in the room next to his (he lives with me and my husband), and I listen to him snoring, crying, laughing, yelling, moaning and cheering in his room everyday. I want to be close in case he falls or yells for me. I can tell you from experience now, that alcoholism, fear and stubbornness make up the trifecta of death. It may not be a fast death, but it's death none the less. I heard from a Hospice coordinator that Alcohol is the one substance that will make you feel good while it's killing you. This is the truth. And you'll feel good, until suddenly you don't, but by then the damage is done and it's too late to go back. Dad told me on February 22nd of 2022, that he knew 2 years ago that he was dying...
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